On times of sorrow and fear, we could find a moment of peace if we will empty our heart and mind of any thoughts and feelings. Good morning everyone, peace can only be found within ourself we only need to harness it.
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We dream to realize what is impossible, we hope to make what is improbable and we wish to get what is unreachable. Good day everyone! We may not have and get what we dreamed of, hoped for and wished for but we are lucky to wake up everyday and enjoy the blessing called LIFE. Let's live our life for it only comes once. Let's enjoy what is at hand and make the most of what we can today.
Living is more worthwhile if we can listen than hear, speak than talk, feel than sense, savor than taste and look than see. For living is beyond existence...living is breathing life with others. Good day everyone. Life is meant to be shared and spent at its fullest. Let's live life and not just merely exist.
Reality is sometimes as bright as the sunlight yet we do not see it because we squint our eyes. Good morning everyone. As the sun rises, let's also get up and open our eyes that we may not just see but look on everything around us. While seeing is believing looking will take us to beyond what is visible. Have a wonderful weekend everyone.
The dark clouds could no longer hold its weight and gave in pouring rain and thunder.
Good day everyone. At some point in our lives we are like the clouds containing our pain and have no recourse but to howl and cry when they become too heavy. Like rain and thunder, the stormy spates in our life will also pass. As the sun dries the rain, a new life begins just as the tears drain our pain we are born again. Having been through some tough times in my life, I remember talking to a friend and related that maybe, had I been insensitive and uncaring, it would have made a difference in my life now to which my friend replied, "You can never be what You have never been." My friend was right, however strong the influence of the people in our lives, our better values will dominate and deter us from regressing.
Have a great weekend everyone. There are times in life that we feel we are backsliding; worry not because our good values will uplift and lead us to the right path. I was amazed how three-year-old twin Christian and Steven remember the places where I used to take them seven months ago when I last visited them.
After fetching them from the nursery school this afternoon, we went to buy ice cream. And as we walked out of the supermarket, Steven hold my hand pulling me to the bench where we used to sit while having our ice cream. Very clever boy, he was only two years old when we frequent that place. Windy and cold, we could not stop on the bench to have our ice cream so we went on walking. Upon reaching a curb close to the municipal hall, some meters away from their place, the twin stopped and pointed to the bench at a corner. It was the spot where I took them to play during sunny afternoon. Steven did not budge this time. He stopped and stubbornly said we eat ice cream here. I have to carry hiim so we could go home. Gail, their mom, related that one time, the boys were nagging her to go the church, opposite the muncipal hall, where I also took them. Clever boys, at their young age, they have retentive memories. I hope they continue to have keen memories. People nowadays are either of short memory or of no memories at all. Some deliberately forget events, especially those that have negative effects to others while there are those who play forgetful as an excuse. Tanging ilog na namamaybay
Sa ating bayan ng Calapan Yamang tubig, nagbibigay buhay Daloy nitoy nagsisilbing gabay. Isda ay hitik sa rami Sa bingwit mo ay kakapit Linaw ng tubig ’yong salamin Simoy ng hangin nanamnamin. Nguni’t pagdaan ng panahon Ilog ay tila nalipasan Nang pagtingin at kalinga Silbi’t yaman, nangawala. Maburak at masukal Tubig di na masillayan, Basura’y lulutang-lutang Samyo’y hangin na kay sangsang. Bungad dating siyang daan Tungo sa dagat ng kalawaan Naging makipot , hirap maraanan Dahil sa burak bangka’y di maisagwan. Sa kabilang dako, noo’y pipisikan Ngayo’y hawan, naging tirahan Kadlua’t pugad ng yamang tubig Naisang tabi, silbi’y nakalimutan. Nawa’y muling bigyang buhay Ilog Ipa ay pagyamanin Lamang ilog, daloy ng tubig Sariwang simoy, manumbalik. Taong bayan sana’y turuan Pagmamahal sa kalikasan Pagtataguyod ng likas-yaman, Obligasyon ng sambayanan. Surprising, engaging, exciting and appalling...life has it all. And whatever mood our life is, we have to go on. Have a pleasant day and a great weekend everyone! Cheers to our challenging yet joyful life ♥
To all women, cheers to our contribution to mankind; for being a mom but not necessarily a mother and wife. Let’s continue empowering ourselves to have an equal recognition as men, and uphold our rights as individuals worthy of respect and adoration. To e veryone….CHEERS!!!
The day that ushers
The end of the weekdays And cap the busy days Another week is over. It’s the day to be gay Forget the daily ways Ease the mind and chill Relax and make some thrills. For some this is the day To reckon the weekly gains Reflect, deflect, effect Changes for the next weekdays. Love is not a guarantee that a relationship will last. A good relationship should be born out of trust and respect. You can only truly say that you love a person when you will not doubt his/her sincerity and when you respect his/her individuality.
Love is for those
Who are willing to share Who are ready to change Who are eager to complement Who know how to compliment. For love is meant to be shared To uplift people’s life To fill the void And to cheer. _ Friendly, hardworking and young at heart….that’s how I remember Inay, my mother-in-law. She was spontaneous and eloquent, she will always say what was in her mind. The matriarch of the Grejalde family, it took us sometime before we developed our closeness and trust with each other.
I had a taste of her spontaneity when one time, she questioned Benjie why he was giving Xylem her morning bath when it was supposed to be my duty while stressing that his job is to work and provide for his family. Before Benjie could reply, I butted in and threw her a question: “Bakit po, nanay lang ba ang may obligasyon na mag-asikaso ng anak? Eh nagtatrabaho din ako ah!” Little did she know that Benjie got used to giving her bath because of the arrangement we have made that in the absence of a maid, with his flexible work schedule, he will take an evening shift so he could look after Xylem at daytime while I was at work. That incident, however, made us closer than apart. I somehow gained her respect and from then on, I never heard any tongue slashes directed to me. We got to know each other more when after my operation in 1995; I stayed in Lian while recuperating. She was sweet in her own way; she would give me panutsa (molded sugar-coated peanuts) and bibingkoy, sticky rice cake stuffed with beans, almost every day as my merienda. She will also share with me her books. She loves to read Filipino paperbacks. “Nakakapagpabata ng puso,” she told me when I asked why she reads those love stories. Inay was an early riser; she’s up in their sugarcane farm at the crack of the dawn, walked her way there. And from the farm, she will buy pan-de-sal for our breakfast and pass by the market to buy fresh produce of either vegetables or fish or meat to be cooked for lunch and dinner. She has things to do all the time of the day. Among her daily routine was the stop to a friend’s house to play bingo in the afternoon. “Papasok na ako,” she will say before going to her bingo sessions. She’s only after the fun and the camaraderie, she said, she did not care about winning or losing. Very seldom you will see her in a serious mood. She was always happy. She knew almost everybody who passed by in front of the house and greet everyone of them. Her evening is capped by watching tele-novelas which she religiously follows. Reading sent her to sleep. A devout Catholic, she went to church and attended novena regularly. She was a devotee of the town’s patron St. John de Baptist. Though she has the command on almost everything in the house, she has not, however, forgotten her wifely duties. She personally looked after the welfare of Tatay when he became bedridden. She always made sure he was comfortable. Long before her death, she told me of her plans how she was going to leave her properties to her children. She wanted to make sure that they will not quarrel and get envious with the share she will leave to each of them. Inay was not used to be hugged and kissed. She felt shy whenever my children expressed their affection to her. She, however, proved to be an endearing lola to them. Every time we visited her, she will prepare their favorite dish of steamed sugpo. Nobody can eat the sugpo until we came. The sugpo has our names written on them, a joke everybody in the house says. And she was generous too. We always have fruits, vegetables, rice and some sweets to bring home to Laguna while the children will get money as her pabaon. I also have my share of her pabaon but with a strict reminder not to tell their dad. On the day she had her accident that led to her death a year ago now; Inay was on her top form and assertiveness. She refused to talk to me when Baby called up to inform me that she was at the hospital. I overheard her saying no and castigated them, “bakit ninyo sinabi sa kanya?” I later learned that her refusal to tell was to ensure that she will not be an added burden to the challenges we were facing that time. She knew that one way or the other, I have to inform Benjie of her situation. I haven’t remember sharing with her our marriage life but I was surprised when, few months before her death, she advised me to attend to my personal life now that the children are all grown-ups. “Tama na ang pagtitiis, malalaki na ang mga bata” were her exact words. Her gesture made me cry. Coming from a mother-in-law, it was something. Thank you Inay for your kindness. You will never know what I have been through but I was happy that you have understood me. And I may never be your real daughter but I have never felt being a stranger from you either. I know you are happier now and living peacefully in His presence. _ there are times we are caught in a situation
that left us no choice but to accept it; that we just continue to exist breath, see, look, listen mumble than talk, drift than walk and be numb. That we wish we are different Careless than attentive Egoist than selfless arrogant than kind illogical than intuitive _ Heard a great love story from an old Swedish lady confined at the same hospital where my daughter Xylem was recuperating following her accident. They share the room at the orthopedic ward of the Karolinska Sjukhuset.
She related to us the story of a guy who became paralyzed after a car accident and his fiancée who continued to show her love to him even after she got married. The incident happened over 30 years ago. The lovers were engaged to be married and on the night before the wedding, the guy who lives up north, travelled down to go to his girlfriend’s place. Unfortunately on that same night, it was winter time, dark and the road was slippery with thick pile of snow, he met a car accident. The backhoe operator cleaning the highway did not notice his car coming. He crashed his car and something him hit on the head The accident left him paralyzed and dumb, he can only move his eyes. Initially, the lady thought that she was jilted because he failed to show up on their wedding day but upon learning of the accident, she rushed to his side immediately. No wedding was held but she personally attends to his needs and devotes her time to his welfare. She had great love for him that it was only recently that she got married. Old age left her no chance to bear a child anymore. Being married does not, however, stopped her from looking after him. She spends one day, every week, to attend to his welfare. The guy, despite his state, is happy and this can be seen in his eyes. She is the reason for his continued existence. Such an enduring and selfless love….if only everyone has the kind of heart she possesses, this will be a beautiful world. _ Year 2011 has been one of my trying yet exciting years. It was the year when complicated decisions were made; when consequential and unforeseen events brought more emotional challenges than fulfillment, when motherhood, as always, won over my personal concerns and when I travelled more.
The year consequently brought me back to Stockholm, a lovely city which I call my little Venice yet until now I cannot feel I belong here. I also had the chance to travel back to Oslo, the city where I realized that we all have our saturation point, that acceptance is not always the key to a lasting relationship, and that selfishness has irreversible consequences. I also spent longer times in Denmark where in one occasion, a question thrown to me made me cry the whole day. The question evoked so much memory which has great impact on my current situation. It was during this year, though, that I have realized my dreams of going to Prague and Athens. I've been to Milan too where I got the chance to reconnect with a classmate I have not seen for 30 years. There were also some enhancing professional achievements, I attended some international events, widened my acquaintance in my field and managed to write news articles that were widely read. I started my own website where I regularly post my writings and photographs and received excellent reviews and comments. On the social aspect, I developed friendships and met people who have opened me to more realities in life…that we should not be afraid to express our feelings and speak our mind out even if at times, it can hurt others, and that we are only accountable to our own actions. It was an emotionally trying year but all the pain goes when I am with my children. I am happiest when I am with them. We may have the most unusual Filipino family set up but my children and I have accepted and learned how to live with it. I am blessed to have intelligent, emotionally and socially matured children. There are times I can feel they are more matured than I am when it comes to understanding life. They are adventurous; they are willing to face all the risks so they can live on their own. And it is inevitable that we will be living separately anytime soon and it is going to be another emotional struggle on my part but I strongly believe that with the values we have instilled in them and the strength they have acquired they can manage. And though the year ended with a very unfortunate incident, Xylem broke her feet that required operations, we all look forward to the promise of the New Year….job /business opportunity for me, further education and better job for my Xylem and Barbarella, graduation march for Bj and for Benjie, the realization that what has been lost can never be regained and that words spoken are irretrievable. We can never lose something that we didn't have
as we can never share something that we do no have. _ Weekend is exciting; we always look forward to its coming. It is during this time when we break the monotony and enjoy life spontaneously. Have a great weekend everyone!
_Life has its own boundaries, we have to learn how to read signs and know our limits. Pushing things that are not meant to happen is a futile exercise. May we all realized where our boundaries lie that we may enjoy to the fullest our own limits. Have a blessed week everyone.
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Letting go is not about forgetting the person, it is more about forgetting the feelings towards that person... _ First day of the last month of the year and soon it will be weekend, an auspicious time to reflect, deflect and effect....reflect on our gains, deflect on our loses and effect changes.
The day also ushers us to the most joyous time of the year, the Christmas season. May the spirit of joy that the season brings fill the hearts of everyone and may it last throughout the coming the year. _Words are powerful tool they can make or break. Let's be careful in everything we say. Damage brought by harsh words is irreversible as words spoken are irretrievable.
There comes a time in our life when we feel lost and alone. And however spiritual or religious we are, believing that He is always there for us, we turn to a friend to seek comfort and for some cheering up.
Distance holds no barrier, you can feel the warmth and the care extended to you even through just a message or a simple emoticon. You feel comforted with the thought that there is somebody other than Him who will be there during your down times. To my dear friend, my sincerest gratitude. Thank you for being there! We will never get the chance to see each other again but I am grateful for knowing you... Have a great weekend everyone! Catch the sun, breath some fresh air and strut freely. Live life, it is too precious to waste away!
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