_ Year 2011 has been one of my trying yet exciting years. It was the year when complicated decisions were made; when consequential and unforeseen events brought more emotional challenges than fulfillment, when motherhood, as always, won over my personal concerns and when I travelled more.
The year consequently brought me back to Stockholm, a lovely city which I call my little Venice yet until now I cannot feel I belong here. I also had the chance to travel back to Oslo, the city where I realized that we all have our saturation point, that acceptance is not always the key to a lasting relationship, and that selfishness has irreversible consequences. I also spent longer times in Denmark where in one occasion, a question thrown to me made me cry the whole day. The question evoked so much memory which has great impact on my current situation. It was during this year, though, that I have realized my dreams of going to Prague and Athens. I've been to Milan too where I got the chance to reconnect with a classmate I have not seen for 30 years. There were also some enhancing professional achievements, I attended some international events, widened my acquaintance in my field and managed to write news articles that were widely read. I started my own website where I regularly post my writings and photographs and received excellent reviews and comments. On the social aspect, I developed friendships and met people who have opened me to more realities in life…that we should not be afraid to express our feelings and speak our mind out even if at times, it can hurt others, and that we are only accountable to our own actions. It was an emotionally trying year but all the pain goes when I am with my children. I am happiest when I am with them. We may have the most unusual Filipino family set up but my children and I have accepted and learned how to live with it. I am blessed to have intelligent, emotionally and socially matured children. There are times I can feel they are more matured than I am when it comes to understanding life. They are adventurous; they are willing to face all the risks so they can live on their own. And it is inevitable that we will be living separately anytime soon and it is going to be another emotional struggle on my part but I strongly believe that with the values we have instilled in them and the strength they have acquired they can manage. And though the year ended with a very unfortunate incident, Xylem broke her feet that required operations, we all look forward to the promise of the New Year….job /business opportunity for me, further education and better job for my Xylem and Barbarella, graduation march for Bj and for Benjie, the realization that what has been lost can never be regained and that words spoken are irretrievable.
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Darryl OldChief Brown
12/31/2011 11:38:02 pm
May 2012 bring you many beautiful experiences. Peace, love, and blessings to you and your family...
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Marmee
12/31/2011 11:42:10 pm
I love you Mama <3
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